UPDATE – I am definitely doing the show in TWO weeks!!! TWO WEEKS!!!!! I may not be ready for the pro stage and hell, I may be last place but who gives a $%&*??!! Not me! I’m getting up on stage to fulfill and complete a personal goal. I have learned SOOO much through this process (check back for a post-show reflection post where I’ll tell you all of that) and it has been SOOO worth it. I wouldn’t trade this experience for anything and it has been one of the toughest, if not the toughest experience of my life thus far. What a great lead in to the next phase of my life – motherhood and childbirth (God willing!)!!!
EPIPHANY – I had an epiphany last night while I was lifting biceps and watching how vascular I’m getting….it was like looking at someone else in the mirror. It was a very weird experience. During that time I was thinking. I had the gym all to myself on a Friday night doing my cardio and my lifting. No men that I had to give the evil eye to tell them to mind their own business. Anyway, I was thinking…..Now most of you who know me know that I’m a realist! I like definites. I HATE hypotheticals. And, I don’t speak in terms that I KNOW I will do something unless it’s really a sure thing….like this show. I’ve said that I “plan” to compete on May 22 because it hasn’t been a sure thing until now and so I was just planning it. Well, I’ve also said MANY times that my PLAN was to get in the best shape of my life before I got pregnant……
I DID IT!!!! I did that!!! I AM!!! I am in the best shape of my life and I am 27 years old. I’m not planning it anymore. I’ve busted my ass and I did it! What is the best shape of my life??? I have low body fat, yes. And being vain (which I am) and insecure, that was part of the goal. I wanted to get as lean as I could so that selfishly I could try to “control” some of the pregnancy weight gain process to ensure as much enjoyment over my pregnancy as possible. BUT also I wanted to “train” for the marathon of pregnancy and childbirth and really be in great physical shape to carry around an extra 30 pounds and to give birth (the toughest workout of my life!!!) I DID IT!!! I’m in better cardiovascular shape than I ever have in my life. I hate cardio and I’m doing it TWICE a day. I bought a bike to make it fun and keep it up. I found a cardio combat class that I LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! I’m still lifting moderately heavy – ok I’m still the strongest chick in my gym (a status I hope to ALWAYS hold)…I welcome you all to join me in the ranks of lifting the big weights and I will welcome any girl into the club who wants to join me….THAT is a huge source of pride for me….maybe it shouldn’t be, but it is. (Side note – It’s a sense that I am doing what others say I shouldn’t be able to…lift w/ the boys…I’m a woman but I am a strong woman and I am SO proud of that accomplishment.) Anyway, I am in the best “shape” of my life in ALL aspects!!! Ah, and add mental “shape” and the fact that I don’t crave cookies and cakes right now. Sure they taste great but I am craving healthy sweets like raisins and smoothies!!! I am able to look at unhealthy foods now and say “I don’t want to put that in my body” versus “Whoa is me, why can’t I have that?” and “When can I have that again….after May 22?” THAT is a profound place for me and my mental health and eating disorder issues. I am viewing my life in a manner of HEALTH and it is SOOOOO FREEING!!!!! What freedom to CHOOSE to pack my own meals because the ones out in the town are not good for my body versus feeling trapped like I have to pack my meals for this stupid show. Wow, the power of our thoughts…the power of our mental perspective!!!!
So, I have pages and pages and pages of things to write that I have learned through this process and will do a huge post.
Also, a sneak peak to the NEXT CHAPTER OF FITori……..
- HEALTHY RECIPES - healthy pancakes? What? You ate healthy pancakes and muffins during contest prep? Yes ma’ams and sirs…..I want to play with the recipes though and offer you both an option for contest prep that includes artificial sweeteners and natural ones. So, I’m waiting on that. ALSO, I want to play with my photography and use those recipes as a way to play with my camera and photography skills!!! I have been waiting soooo long to try out a TON of new recipes that I want to try, tweek, photo and share with you!!! I can’t wait!!!
- Sharing my own diet (once I’m not paying for it) and continued progress after this show – depending on how soon I am able to get pregnant. But regardless, I hope to share some “diet” ideas with you all to help you all (who want it) with the tools needed to succeed in your weight loss and health journeys!!
- Fertility Nutrition
- Pre-pregnancy and Pregnancy Nutrition
- Nursing Nutrition
- HEALTH vs body image/fat/skinny
- Hopefully my own pregnancy progress pics – both getting big and then trimming back down again
I have been doing a TON of research – to the point of overkill, but luckily, you all will get to reap the benefits of that!!! AND, the beauty of pregnancy nutrition is that what’s good for a pregnant woman…hello, it’s good for all of us!!! I have learned SOOO much about glycemic index and blood sugar through that research and I can’t wait to share it with you.
SO EXCITED about what the future holds!!!!!!!!!!!! And, as always, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for all of your support!!!! Without your support I couldn’t have done this and probably would have quit.