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Figure Lessons | Will FITori compete again?

(Sorry this has taken so long…I have been sick off and on since the show, my computer has been acting up for a month, and I have been a really busy girl, living the life that I missed out on during contest prep.)

I learned SOOO much during the preparation this past year for my Figure Show.  Life is about the journey, not the destination. That is a very true statement regarding this show for me.  The goal was to get in the best shape of my life before we had kids and to achieve the goal of getting on the Figure Stage…well, I didn’t quite make that goal because I ended up on the Bikini Stage, but my goals kind of changed during the process.  Please do not take offense to any of this. 

This is my personal journey and what I learned and gained for ME during MY journey. I personally do not think I will compete again and hope that I do not offend any of my competitor friends!  I still support you in your decisions and your goals…and may change my mind, but for now…it’s just not for me. I hope you understand after reading this post, but again, please do not take any of this personally since it is simply my personal opinion and inner conflict.

Currently, I’m trying to figure out what “diet” works for my body. I’m trying to slowly get back to a place where I can eat “normally” rather than on a contest diet.  That “normal” diet is a healthy, balanced diet not a “normal American diet.”  I am still taking what I learned about losing weight and trying to apply it to maintaining weight which is a totally different world that I know nothing about!  And my body is not responding all that well.  According to my trainer, for me, for now, 1100 – 1400 calories is “maintenance” until I get my body back the way it was….used to the normal 2000 calories. BTW, that is with continued exercise!  So….not “normal” and not a whole lot of food.  My body will be adjusting back to a “normal diet” for while!

PHYSICALLY, from the process….

  • I learned a lot about what to do (and what it takes) to get in shape and stay in shape.
  • I learned about portion control and meal timing.
  • I learned how to season my foods without butter or oil but instead, exploring herbs and seasonings.
  • I’ve experimented with healthy meals, making healthy breakfast pancakes out of egg whites and oatmeal.  I’ve made really tasty, low fat and low cal fish recipes.
  • I discovered that I can remove things from my diet that I never thought I could!!!
  • I added in diet soda (bad idea) and then later removed it (after thinking I’d be hooked forever).  I still drink it more than ever before (which was never) so this was a “taste” that I acquired that I am NOT happy about!
  • I learned to drink herbal tea.  This is a new STAPLE in our diets! We love drinking herbal tea at night! So glad I discovered this!!
  • I learned that cutting out salt and caffeine is possible.
  • I learned to drink coffee black (though I only did that out of necessity…my creamer is a luxury I’m not yet willing to give up long-term).
  • I learned to listen to my body and truly understand the cues it is giving me. I truly know low blood sugar and hunger and what that feels like. I truly know when it is time to eat and when it is a time that I am just eating to eat.  (Don’t get me wrong…I am not perfect….this is still a learning process, even for me.)  I now know what being tired feels like and how taking a nap is way more beneficial than trying to eat my way alert.
  • I learned that when you are STARVING you have little control over cravings and are much more apt to “binge” than if your body is “balanced”!
  • I learned that I will always have to watch my portions…..for the rest of my life. (At least I think so now, just after contest, when my “maintenance” calories are still well below the average person due to what I’ve put my body through.)
  • I learned that during contest prep (or hard-core dieting) I am starving around lunchtime or the few hours later, sometime between 1 and 3 pm every day I will want to eat everything I can get my hands on!
  • I learned it takes me 20-30 minutes to feel full so I have to portion my meals out before I sit down with my meals, eat, drink water and wait or I will always eat more calories than I need.
  • I love to eat. I will always love to eat. I even love to eat healthy foods. Food is so fun and exciting……all the great combinations and new tastes and flavors!
  • I will always have to pay attention to how much I am eating and be mindful of that or I will gain weight

I WANT TO EAT HEALTHY NOW. Most importantly throughout this process, I changed my mindset.

  • I WANT to eat healthy now!
  • I choose healthy versions of foods over unhealthy ones, for the most part.
  • I prefer healthier options. I prefer fruits over cookies…most of the time 🙂
  • I don’t look at cookies anymore with a “whoa is me. why can’t i have those cookies. when can i have those cookies. as soon as contest prep is over i can have those cookies.”  Instead, I think, “cookies sound good. maybe next week i’ll make something similar with oats and raisins.”  Or, even better, it doesn’t phase me or I think about having fruit instead.  That is probably the best thing I took from this.
  • I also learned that I am not always in control when I start eating crappy.  I have a hard time stopping.  I am better off not starting at all!  Or picking healthier options that actually fill me up! When I eat garbage (simple sugars that do not trigger satiety) I feel like a bottomless pit that cannot be filled up and since those foods are already calorie dense, I eat a tremendous amount of calories in one sitting.  I have to not start.  And, that is getting easier.
  • It is a lifestyle shift that we have had to make in our home to not have those things in the house…at all! And we have learned through trial and error how we feel when we eat crappy foods.
  • We enjoy the taste of real foods and we enjoy how we feel when we eat them. Profound! 🙂

I LEARNED THAT FIGURE COMPETITIONS ARE NOT FOR ME!

  • I do not plan to ever compete in Figure or prepare for another Figure Competition again.
  • I thought I was competing in Figure until the night before the show. I signed up for and paid for both Figure & Bikini but found out the night before that I had to choose. My trainer and the judge that I asked both agreed that I was better suited for Bikini. I did not get lean enough for Figure.
  • I had a cross-road (a few of them) where I had to decide…..am I willing to push my body this hard to get to be leaner than I feel is healthy?
  • For me, it was a huge decision to make!!!
  • I entered into this wanting to put my very best package on stage and look like a competitor in Oxygen Magazine.
  • I ended up wanting to put MY very best package on stage, but knew that would NOT look like the girls in Oxygen Magazine because I was not willing to get that lean, not right now, and not that quick.
  • I didn’t understand what it meant to get that lean when I originally set out to get on stage.
  • I learned what that meant during this process.
  • By understanding that process, I now have a greater respect for my body.
  • I no longer WANT to look at those Figure Girls (no offense to anyone)
  • I no longer WISH I could look like those Figure Girls. (what a freeing feeling, BTW!)
  • My opinion of what I want to look like has changed….probably because I now understand what it takes to get to that level of body fat and I also have adjusted my opinion of what “healthy” means for me.
  • I no longer look at those girls and berate myself with internal dialogue…thinking how lazy I am for not looking like them.  I no longer look at them and beat myself up for not looking like that.
  • Instead, I look at them and I am happy for them. I understand (for the most part) what it takes to get there and more power to them! But, it’s not for me and that’s okay!!

AT WHAT COST?! SACRIFICES.

  • For me, it took too many SACRIFICES.
  • I felt like I was sacrificing everything, for what? To look good? It became a huge conflict for me.  I
  • felt like I was giving up things that were truly more important than looking good!
  • It took 2-3 hours a day at the gym that I could be spending with my husband, my friends and family, working, working on my masters, enjoying “me” time, working on my hobbies, etc.  That time commitment doesn’t include the time to practice posing, research posing, order all of the products needed for the show, book makeup, hair and nails, etc.  It goes on and on. The time commitment was rough!
  • Even when I had the time I didn’t feel like myself. I didn’t have any energy. I gave half of myself to everything – family, friends, work, school.  It was a struggle to function.
  • I had a trainer tell me at one point that “you will feel bad during this process. It is not normal to push your body this low in body fat.”  Whaat??!!! I wish I had known what that meant a year ago, but I had to learn it myself by living it….and that I did!
  • Money.  Ouch. Also, I knew it would cost money but didn’t think it’d be that bad!
  • It was really expensive!!!  Suits, hair, tan, NPC card, entrance fees, shoes, etc. etc.  It cost more money than I thought was necessary.
  • There were other things I would have liked to have spent that money on.
  • I missed out on going places with friends because of food or I went anyway and had the focus all on me because it was hard to blend in and I was focused on the food in front of me because my body was literally starving.  I tried to blend in not eating and it was awkward. Then, I had to talk about the show, which I didn’t want to do.  I feel, in part, that I lost out on time. I was waiting for the contest to be over so that I could enjoy living my life again.
  • Now, I’m enjoying my life and trying to enjoy every invitation I get so I’m overbooking myself a bit trying to make up for lost time!  Toward the end, all the signs were saying this is not for me and stop this!
  • I finished it out but I am glad it’s over and I do not want to go back to that time!  I felt like I was being untrue to myself to finish that goal and I’m glad I finished it but it was really hard mentally toward the end when I truly felt as though I didn’t believe in what I was doing but I was doing it anyway.

WHAT IS HEALTHY….for me?!

  • I learned that the things that competitors put into their bodies to make them lean isn’t always healthy.
  • I learned that fat burners are not healthy.  I lost sight of that when I started getting obsessed with meeting my goal quickly and when trainers were telling me what to take, I started following blindly at one point. I felt HORRIBLE though after taking fat burners for a few days – I couldn’t sleep, I felt awful and figured out that it wasn’t worth it!  It didn’t make any sense!  Why would I ingest something that would make me look good and feel bad?! It made no sense, so I stopped!!
  • At that point I decided that I would be as healthy as I could for the remaining month or so until the competition and then I’d be done!
  • I also decided that if I ever did this again, I’d do it on my own time schedule.
  • I decided that I wouldn’t ever plan to get as lean as a Figure Competitor but might do Bikini again.
  • I learned that, for the most part, competitors choose to use artificial sweeteners and artificial butters, rather than just a little of the “real” stuff.  Which is healthier? You be the judge.  It is a personal decision that we each have to make for ourselves and for our families!
  • Is it better to carry an extra 5 lbs and be eating real foods than be extremely (unnaturally maybe) thin and be eating chemicals to stay that way? For me, yes!  What is healthy?  Healthy, to me, means a lot of things and I have a lengthy blog post coming on this. As I mentioned before, I do not believe that adding chemicals into our foods is “healthy” in order to stay skinny. I would rather be a little heavier and eat real foods. I find it hard to ingest chemicals for vanity.  That’s just me!

REBOUND!

  • Since the show, I have realized that some rebound HAS to happen due to the extremes we put our bodies through during competition prep.
  • I find this ludicrous.
  • I have taxed my body so hard that I am unable to maintain the body that I worked so hard for without continuing my 2-3 hour workouts and 1100 calorie diet?
  • In order to maintain my current weight I need to still be eating around 1100-1400 calories and keep up those workouts. It’s tough after 1.5 years of dieting to consider that to be a healthy option for me!
  • I am struggling with this right now. I’m wondering why I did that to my body when this is the outcome.
  • I am trying to maintain, though I’m 10 pounds heavier than I was on stage, and 5 pounds heavier than I’d like.  Those last 5 pounds were from my recent travels – I was only home 2 days/week over the last month.
  • The thought of dieting off those 5 pounds scares me though….because I’m concerned it slow down the process of trying to get my body back responding to food like a normal person’s body would!

HEALTHY AND BALANCED.

I am enjoying eating healthy and balanced. I will enjoy working out again once I am better. I have been sick every other week since the show and these last two weeks I have been REALLY sick with a cold/sinus infection that is rough, so my workouts have not been the best.  I have been trying to rest and get better and hopefully get my immune system functioning properly again.   Being this sick is a sign!!! A sign of what I did to my body!!!

I want to be a more balanced me and I know I will find that when my body starts responding to treating it with respect again.  I am living a truly balanced and happy life now and am letting my body come back to balance when it is ready, hopefully sooner than later!

I took the following quote from a blog entry by Erik Ledin of Lean Bodies Consulting.  You can find the article here….Metabolic Mind Games.

“As Scott Abel has repeatedly said, ‘force the body and it reacts; coax the body and it responds’. Huge difference. Starving fat off is not the same as burning fat off. Working against your body is not the same as working with your body…”

Food for thought.  Thank you all for your continued support. I hope my reflection helps some of you in your own journey.

April - This is such a great post! I feel I could have written it.

I’m going through a phase where no matter how “little” I eat or how hard I workout I am gaining grrr….Sometimes I feel it’s not worth it. I need to let my body take it’s course.

However, i’m thinking of competing in bikini this November 😉 Part of me wants to and the other part just needs a goal. We shall see 🙂

Clifford Froelich - Great post. In an attempt to lose people feel they need to reach extremes to continue observing their “gains”. The funny thing is that in an attempt to lose weight the natural thing is to eat less. This unfortunately is the greatest mistake. The body responds in a survival mechanism… it lowers the basal metabolic rate (it slows the body’s metabolism). The key is to eat more. Eat low calorie, high fiber, lean foods that will continue the already increased metabolism (the increased metabolism of gained muscle). Look at the pros… they eat all of the time and absolutely hate it because it consumes their life. Their jaws tire and the cost of food is obscene but it works. The biggest problem that I observe is getting off of the lifestyle. Once in the habit of eating all of the time results in an extreme hunger when trying to normalize life. It is a lot like what you have been experiencing…normal is hard when you have shifted the homeostasis of life too far in one direction. I too am exploring the enjoyment of every bite and every step of a workout… living life as it meets me and relishing it. Good luck with your endeavors!

Kelly Olexa - WHY am I just finding your blog? Wow, I am WOWED! And I so want to “interview” you for my Wednesday Woot Factor! (If you are up for it) I love this post about what you learned in figure competition. I learned some of that, although I didn’t get as far as competing…but there is a whole other side to it, isn’t there? It is something I won’t ever do, so not worth the tradeoffs IMO.
Great post, I added your blog to my Link Love section too!! 😉

joy - Love this! A couple of thoughts on your reflections:
On Sacrifice: You can tell a lot about what a person values by where they spend their time and money. These are two of our most valuable assets. We actually see Time as being more valuable than money since we can’t get it back and the reward is so rich. I think you are right on in realizing that when you are spending hours in the gym, you are missing out on time with friends and family and ultimately being useful to God’s kingdom.

Matthew 6: 19″Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.”

As for your body, just keep eating well and working out (doing what is fun and enjoyable – even just going for a walk or taking a class with C). Even take a little bit of time off, if that’s what you need. I think you are right that your body is reacting to all the stress it was under in your efforts to prepare for competition. You’ll bounce back.

The most important thing is to be healthy – physically, mentally and spiritually.

The quote from Erik is a mindset of working with our design instead of forcing things into a box. I think there are both schools of thought out there on any medium (food, baby care, labor and delivery, medicine etc) – I love searching for the balance.

Great work here Tori!!! I’m so glad you ended up in a place you didn’t expect to be! Life is so much more fun that way!

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Chelle - Hi Tori, i’ve just found your blog through Miss KellyO! What an awesome post, i’ve had a very similar experience with figure comps too. I love your energy, your attitude and your now ‘healthy and balanced’ approached to health and fitness. Keep inspiring, you’re doing an awesome job =)

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Alysha @Shesontherun - Hi, Tori. I just found your website from HealthyPage. How inspiring! I love how honest you are and I’m glad I found a new blog to read 🙂

tori - thank you!!!!! tell me if you have ideas for blog posts! i find myself boring! ha! so i don’t know what others want to hear!

tori - Thanks Alysha!!! I’ll have to run over and check on your blog too!!!

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