I am sorry I have been an absent blogger the last few days…I’ve been enjoying my life! 🙂
I took this photo while I was outside the other day taking photos. I was admiring my curves and my booty! I was noticing how my weight gain since the competition had been different than before and was admiring my lower half! 🙂
I am so grateful for this time of my life. I’ve been saying that for years and hopefully I will say that every day for the rest of my life. I feel like I have the best part of my life still ahead.
I was not feeling so grateful during my competition prep because I just wanted to be propelled to after the comp and be done. I hated the body obsession that came with that time.
Now, it’s a different time and I’ve gained some weight. My ankle is hurt and I’m not as active as I would like to be. I “rebounded” a bit after my competition and gained 5 pounds pretty steadily.
This is a time in my life where I am viewing my body for what it was intended rather than simply for what it looks like. Our body image (as women) is so complex. This time is forcing me to love my body, even with an extra 10 pounds that I’d like gone! I feel best lighter. My clothes [the TONS of clothes I’ve already purchased that I LOVE] don’t fit as well now. But, I’m not lighter now. And, that’s ok!
I am aware that to be that lean is not the best idea for my body in this time of my life. I am accepting that there is nothing wrong with me. This is me now. I will not look in the mirror and wish I was smaller. I will not wish I looked like someone else. I will not wish to be in a different time in my life, like back at contest prep time. Sure, I looked great, but I got there the wrong way and I didn’t feel my best. I feel pretty darn good right now.
I will lose the weight…hopefully after our first child. Until then, I am a healthy 10 pounds heavier and hopefully fertile. This time is good for me, mentally and I am thankful that God has a plan for my life.
Bottom line. Don’t wish to be somewhere or someone else. If you’re ready to make a change, make it. But do not wish to be someone else. BE WHO YOU ADMIRE. Act every day like a person that you would admire. You will feel good about yourself every night when you lay your head on the pillow knowing you made good choices that day. You will build self-confidence.
Tell me about a time when you felt good about yourself despite being in the “perfect” body
Tell me about a time you struggled to obtain that “perfect” body and realized it’s not all it’s cracked up to be!